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There's this hole in my chest. Right where my heart is. With every feeling I have. And I don't know what to fill it with. I don't know what else to do anymore. It just seems like everyday when I wake, I'm feeling better.. but when I try to sleep at night, I realize that nothing is better by any margin. When I close my eyes to go to sleep at night, I realize I can't sleep, but I have no explanation why. I lie awake, forcing myself for two or three hours. And then I wake up too early in the morning and have a fitful sleep for few more hours. I don't know what to do. It seems like I'm alone a lot too. Every hour by myself seems like it's extended for an unbearable amount of time. I can't find enough things to do to pass the time. Things like this, who am I supposed to tell? Because either no one knows what to say or they don't listen. And I'm not saying my life is hard or terrible by any means. It's so overwhelming right now and I'm lost in it and I need someone to pick me up and guide me because I don't know what to do anymore. When I pick up the pieces and try to move on through anything, everything crumbles in front of me. I'm on the verge of slipping and losing it, and I know and foresee this, but I can't stop it. What am I going to do..