More to the last

So, nothing really exciting has been going on in my life. My mom says I'm bitter about the whole Tyler situation, but I'm really not. I'm kind of unhappy these days... I know I shouldn't be because I'm the one that ended things with Tyler. It's just that, I don't know how to be happy without someone. I do miss him, but I am happy with just hanging out with him. I know it's just because I have a lot of time on my hands to think about all the mistakes I've made and things I could've done differently. I can't live my life that way and I know I can't, it's just hard to think of other things these days. I really get the feeling that this is somehow my fault, but I did what I thought was best for both of us. We were both holding the other one back. From what? I haven't learned yet. And I know I said that I don't need a boyfriend to make me happy, I just need someone to talk to and cares about my feelings and about me and wants to be with me. But I know that as soon as I go back to school, I'm not going to care about any of that. I told you, it's just the excess time on my hands speaking. One more thing I want to add to that list: Mistakes do not define a person, the way they deal with the consequences does. Oh yeah and one more thing about Tyler George. He is talking to some little sophmore from PT on Myspace. Her name is Joey and I want to know about her. He calls her "gorgeous" because he says that's her nickname. Obviously he didn't like me that much if he is already scoping out a new honey. Ashley said that he's taking a step down and looking for a rebound. Surprisingly, I'm not jealous of her, it's just that I'm a little offended he found whatever he could that fast. It makes him look desperate. I would like to hang out with you sometime soon Taylor Ann. If you're not busy Thursday or Friday, that'd be excellent. My uncle is taking me driving, so I'm going to go drive MY car Danny Girl. :D That's so exciting to say. Anyway, let me know about this week. Much love.

K