I don't know

What is wrong with me. I went to sleep last night at 2 and woke up at 5 and could not go back to sleep. Yes, I'm still awake just dilly dallying. I don't know what to do with myself. I am painting my room. Yellow. :] How exciting! I'm going to go buy some sheets and find a comforter and a new bookshelf. I don't know why I want to do this all of a sudden but I've decided to do it. I'm going to go find a comforter. I'll talk to you later. Much love.

K

Quote of the day: I used to be love drunk. But now I'm hungover.

I want...

Okay. I already know this. You're going to call me crazy. BUT, here's the big but. Do not call me crazy... just yet. I want a baby. Right now, as in tomorrow. I just see all these pregnant women and it makes me want a baby. I know it's totally irrational. But I'm just feeling particularly maternal! So, I want to put my life in fast forward until I'm married and pregnant, if either ever happens...? Okay, it's a legit time, you may call me crazy. I'm going to bed with my insane, irrational thoughts. Night, much love.

K

I love power naps

I have so much energy now. I fell asleep for 30 solid minutes. Then my mom ruined it when she called asking radonk questions. I was a bit irritated. But not so much anymore. I'm waiting for my love doodle to get off work so I can see her lovely face. I really hope it doesn't rain. I want to go to the drive-in. But I'm going to go. Much love.

K

Quote of the day: Guitars, tiki bars, and a whole lot of love.

Speaking of... Hawaiian night at work on Wednesday... you better be there!

Dooney Bag...

http://www.dooney.com/OA_HTML/ibeCCtpSctDspRte.jsp?section=43265
Which color!?!?!?

Taylor, you've done it again

You've once again impressed me with something awesome. I absolutely love this song, it has a catchy beat. But, my reasoning for posting this blog is to say, I have no time for anything. I have to work everyday until next Monday. :( I want to hang out with my best friend because I haven't seen her in forever, I'm going to try to give my shift away one day this week. But no one will take it because no one really wants to work. I have to go to tennis tomorrow. Boo. Maybe it'll rain. No, I need to go practice. I cannot wait to get a new phone. I have nothing exciting to tell you other than I was decorating everyone at work with these ugly giant tape stars. I think I'm going to take a nap. I didn't sleep well last night. I have nothing to say other than I still want my Dooney bag... in I don't know which color. Oh, yeah, I'm going to go find the link so you can look at all the colors Miss Ann. You must let me know which colors you like. Much love.

K

FORTUNA MAJOR

I'm watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. But that's not the point of this post. The shoes pictured on the left have really caught my eye. And next time I go to the mall, I think I'm going to try them on with a nice pair of jeans. I think they might MAYBE be cute? I really like them though. And of course, like I promised, I found those Rocket Dogs online... in a 7 1/2. Yay me. I also found out that the Dooney bag I want comes in a plethora of colors. I don't know what colors yet, so I'll post the website next time I'm on. Today was extremely uneventful. I went to work at 1 and didn't leave until 9:30... I was rolling silverware the entire time. We were really busy, so hopefully I made a ton of money so that I can buy my 135 dollar bag? Let's hope. I can't wait to get a new phone. I might go see Harry Potter 6 again at the drive-in. Missa and I go to the drive-in every Sunday now. I'm chugging through Second Glance... it's pretty difficult haha. But I think I'm going to read to make myself sleepy because I have to open tomorrow. Have a good evening. Much love.

K

Inspirational things

Sometimes, we just have to be happy with what people can offer us. Even if it's not what we want, at least it's something.

We can't expect everybody to be there for us, all at once. So it's a lucky things that really, all you need is someone.

I really like these two thoughts. A lot. I'm going to go frolic about until i leave with Taylor.

K

Make your banana pancakes

I really do love Jack Johnson. That's not the reason I'm posting this blog, but still I thought should put it out there. So yesterday, please listen to the horrendous things I had to endure. I woke up at 9:45 and had to go to MANDATORY dance class that I did NOT get paid for. I learned how to do Long Neck Bottle and Watermelon Crawl. Which was exciting. I then had to go directly to tennis (which was worth it because I hit very well) and I got some nice tan lines. Then I had to come home, shower, go to work and to top it all off, I closed. It was an extremely long day. When I got home, I watched a little TV, read and passed out. I slept a sold 12 hours (QUALITY)! I am now awake, and I'm very sore. Mostly my upper arms and the insides of my thighs, STUPID MEDICINE BALL. Sadly, I have to go to tennis and close again tomorrow, but oh well. I'm going to dinner with Tyler today and then, oh and then... HARRY FREAKING POTTER 6 AT MIDNIGHT BABY. I'm so excited I don't even know how to tell you. Plus, I get to see my beautiful cousin on Thursday. Woot, woot. I can't wait until my phone upgrade, Kyle has been acting funny lately and I don't know how many more days that fellow has left in him. I also wanted to say, I really do love Jason Aldean and I wish I could see him in concert. But tickets are probably really expensive and he's coming with Keith Urban and I don't like Keith. Mikey's laptop is going to die. Be back later! Much love.

K

Anger

So, maybe I've just had a lot of anger in the past two weeks. That's a probable cause. I vented today while playing tennis, and the energy came out in a positive way. I've realized that you can't waste energy hating or being upset. Take all that negative energy and put it towards something positive. Such as tennis. Today was the best I've played in a really long time and it really felt good. Plus we were tossing an 8 pound medicine ball across the net. Haha, it was very entertaining to watch. Also, Tyler wants to take me to dinner tomorrow. I don't really know if that's an awesome idea, but we'll see how that goes. I have to go to work right now, so I'm going to go ta ta for now. Much love until I return.

K

More to the last

So, nothing really exciting has been going on in my life. My mom says I'm bitter about the whole Tyler situation, but I'm really not. I'm kind of unhappy these days... I know I shouldn't be because I'm the one that ended things with Tyler. It's just that, I don't know how to be happy without someone. I do miss him, but I am happy with just hanging out with him. I know it's just because I have a lot of time on my hands to think about all the mistakes I've made and things I could've done differently. I can't live my life that way and I know I can't, it's just hard to think of other things these days. I really get the feeling that this is somehow my fault, but I did what I thought was best for both of us. We were both holding the other one back. From what? I haven't learned yet. And I know I said that I don't need a boyfriend to make me happy, I just need someone to talk to and cares about my feelings and about me and wants to be with me. But I know that as soon as I go back to school, I'm not going to care about any of that. I told you, it's just the excess time on my hands speaking. One more thing I want to add to that list: Mistakes do not define a person, the way they deal with the consequences does. Oh yeah and one more thing about Tyler George. He is talking to some little sophmore from PT on Myspace. Her name is Joey and I want to know about her. He calls her "gorgeous" because he says that's her nickname. Obviously he didn't like me that much if he is already scoping out a new honey. Ashley said that he's taking a step down and looking for a rebound. Surprisingly, I'm not jealous of her, it's just that I'm a little offended he found whatever he could that fast. It makes him look desperate. I would like to hang out with you sometime soon Taylor Ann. If you're not busy Thursday or Friday, that'd be excellent. My uncle is taking me driving, so I'm going to go drive MY car Danny Girl. :D That's so exciting to say. Anyway, let me know about this week. Much love.

K

Something I've learned

Okay, so I've definitely become a wise sixteen year old girl. I have learned quite a few things and I'm going to make a list. I hope you avoid mistakes by taking these tips.
1. I do not need a boyfriend to make me happy.
2. Never give someone more than you're willing to lose.
3. Don't rely on someone to make you happy.
4. People don't take your feelings in consideration because they're too busy trying to make themselves happy.
5. People never get the things they deserve.
6. Second chances don't exist because people never change.
7. You get what you give, but also what you're willing to take.

Wow

I just typed this extremely long post about what's going on right now and it didn't even post. I'm in the red! That's okay, I'll be here tomorrow to retell I suppose.

K

Update on my life

I haven't been on an extremely long time. But I am here now to give you an update on my life. Carson's cancer is back. He had a tumor on the lining of his brain. His surgeon took all of the abnormal cells (things that glowed on the MRI) out. And he is now in intensive care healing as I write this. It's really hard to see him suffer through this, it's even harder because since he is so young he doesn't understand that he is sick. He just thinks that his childhood is supposed to be like this and it's extremely heart breaking. Other than that, nothing has been exciting. American Eagle is having a giant sale and I bought some good stuff. I've seens Transformers 2 twice now and My Sister's Keeper was a huge dissapointment. I won't say the ending because I don't want to ruin it for you Miss Ann. I have to work today, Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Sigh. I need the money though to support my ridiculous shopping habit. I finally have my debit card (huge mistake). I think I want Coach slip ons for school and maybe a pair of Rocket Dogs too. I don't know, I don't want to think about going back to school. I'm really excited because HP6 is in 11 days. I might be going to Michigan with you Miss Ann, I need to check with my boss etc. I've been kind of depressed lately, I just layed in my bed yesterday just staring at the wall. But I have to go deal with mean people who have no manners, so I have to slap a smile on my face and try to be that false cheery. This is just a rough month so far. I love you Taylor, I'll see you soon. Much love.

K